It haunts me so.......This gloomy weight......That comes and goes.......Without a trace........A thousand times my flesh embrace.......A thousand more but if for grace......To see the Lord, the promised land.......Where in all sins pearly gates look bland.......And what was once a pearl now sand.......That blows away in light of Him........When battle lines become unclear.......And the waging war is all I hear.......Lord sustain me with Your voice.......And the choice to walk in truth.......That I might see this day.......This waging war might go away........And be no more.......That I might see His face.......And hear Him say........Son, welcome home.......The war is over

Currently Listening Nicole C. Mullen By Nicole C. Mullen Redeemer see related

OK, so it has been like forever since I last posted.  I haven't posted mainly because I just haven't had the time, but I decided to take a few minutes and post this entry today.

The Youth Retreat this weekend was amazing.  It was such an awesome experience to totally focus on Him without the distractions of everyday life.  There were so many examples that He pointed out to me this weekend that truly showcased His wonder and His beauty!!  I just want to say to all the Youth, I truly do love you guys and care about each and every one of you!  Thank you for the amazing experiences that you share with me and for allowing me to be apart of your life.

There a song that came to my mind this weekend which, for me, hit the nail on the head.  Here are the lyrics:

Redeemer
Nicole C. Mullen

Who taught the sun where to stand in the morning
Who told the ocean you an only come this far?
Who showed the moon where to hide 'til evening
Whose words alone can catch a falling star?

Well I know my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives
All of creation testify
This life within me cries
I know my Redeemer lives

The very same God that spins things in orbit
He runs to the weary, the worn and the weak
And the same gentle hands that hold me when I'm broken
They conquered death to bring me victory

Now I know my Redeemer lives
I know my Redemer lives
Let all creation testify
Let this life wihtin me cry
I know my Redeemer, He lives

To take away my shame
And He lives forever I'll proclaim
That the payment for my sin
Was the precious life He gave
But now He's alive
And there's an empty grave.

And I know my Redeemer, He lives
I know my Redeemer lives
Let all creation testify
This life within me cries
I know my Redeemer lives

MERRY CHRISTMAS

Currently Listening A Collision By David Crowder Band see related

So now I am breaking the record!!!  Two posts in less than one week, but there is something on my mind and I just feel like writing about it.......................................

I seems like for the past two weeks I have been surrounded by death.  The first was David Crowder's Pastor's death that I spoke about in my last post and the second is that I just found out yesterday that Jason Brown's Dad died suddenly of a heart attack over the weekend.  I am just in a very glum mood right now.  I so agree with Crowder that we should not let death stop us in our tracks, but what I keep doing is putting myself in their shoes.  My heart aches for Jason's Mom who now has to raise 9 children on her own.  My heart aches for Jason and his siblings who have just lost the most important man in their lives.  My heart aches for the Pastor's wife who now has to raise 3 small children on her own.  My heart aches for the congregation of that church in Texas that has to witness the electrocution and death of their Pastor.  I know that both the Pastor and Jason's Dad are up in Heaven dancing on the streets of gold right now and they are in a much better place.

I am not afraid to die because I know that I will be with My Maker when I do, but I am just saddened by what I will be leaving behind and it breaks my heart to think of the sadness and sorrow my passing will cause to my family and friends.  Geeze this is a depressing post....Sorry, it's just I can't shake these constant thoughts that keep swirling in my head...................that's all.

Currently Listening A Collision By David Crowder Band You Are My Joy see related

OK, so I realize it has been forever since I have last posted, here it is a NEW entry.  So, those of you who are being nags, you can just stop.  You know who you are, but I won't mention any names........................................................................................................

ERIN & ERIC

Oops, did I actually type that?!?!?!?!?     HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Anyway, I had the most amazing night last night.  I went to see "The Collision Tour" with Shane & Shane and David Crowder.  Five rows back from the stage baby, thas what I'm talkin bout!!!!  I even got to shake Shane Everett's hand!!!!!!  I shall never wash it again!!!!  OK, so I realize that I am this sick little groupie that just melts at the site of a famous person.  It was such an awesome worship experience.  It was a 4 Hour concert full of 1,200 people worshipping and praising God.  It was so amazing that I had to just sit for about 15 minutes afterwards and let my mind catch up to where the Holy Spirit had taken me.  I'm sure most of you have seen it on the news about the Pastor from Texas that was electrocuted while preparing to do a baptism.  Well, that was the pastor of David Crowder's church, where he himself is the Worship Pastor.  Crowder started his portion of the show by talking about the accident.  He said that "A death of a loved one should not make us stop in our tracks and cease to exist, we need to carry on Spiritually and in life continuing to glorify God".  That is such an awesome statement if you think about it.  The death of his Pastor is a HUGE trial for Crowder, but he choices not to destroy himself over it, but instead continue on with what God has put him on this earth to do, lead others in worshipping Him.

I pray that I can handle any trials that come my way in the same manner.  I always tend to lockup and freeze and I feel like the whole world is caving in around me whenever trials hit.  Instead, I need to hold my head up high and say, God's hand will lead me through the mucky waters and back to dry ground again!!

Anyway, it was such an amazing night, although I am tired because I didn't get home until 1 am and I had to get up at 4:30 am for work.  But oh well, it was so well worth it.